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Let’s face it, marriage in today’s world is being tested more than ever. With the economy, most every family has been effected by it, with busyness, all of us are going different directions, and with the internet, pornography is at an all time high. Not to mention the countless other things that cause marriages to fail, such as communication, intimacy, adultery, and the all to familiar “I just don’t love you anymore”. So I ask the question, Can God Really Save A Marriage?
The answer to that question is, Absolutely! You might think I am crazy, but my marriage is living proof that God can save any marriage. It is my prayer at this very moment, that you stop right here and pray, asking God to forgive you and asking Him to speak to your heart of hearts right now. If you are in the midst of a marriage that is on the rocks, know right now, is a turning point. You are reading this for a reason. God can, and will save your marriage, if you allow Him to. Notice, I said, Allow Him to. Keep that in mind as you read further. Some of what you are about to read maybe hard for you to handle, but I promise you that if you will do it, your life will not only be transformed, but your marriage will too.
A One Way Street
Marriage is a one way street. Yeap, I said it, one way. Not a two way street like people lead you to believe. Marriages fail everyday because of that very notation. All marriages are done before God. All marriages are a union between husband and wife, and all marriages are for better of for worse. You might say, “how does that make it a one way street?” That’s easy. The one way street should be both parties pointing in one direction… to God. If you say it is a two way street, that means both parties are always going different directions. And if that is the case, how will you ever end up in the same destination? If God is not the center of your marriage, and the direction you are going, your marriage is bound to break down at some point. Marriage is a direct reflection of our relationship with God. His is the Bride and we are His Bridegroom. His sacrifice of His one and only Son, Jesus on the Cross, shows us just how He values marriage. He knew we couldn’t keep the law, so what did He do to make sure we had every opportunity to spend eternity with Him? He sent His precious Son to die on the cross for our sins and paid the ultimate price to save His Bridegroom.
God First
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ~ Matthew 6:33
This is the key to anything you do, that you want to have success with. Seeking God first in all we do, you can never go wrong. Does that mean you are never going to have problems? No! Does it mean you are never going to disagree or argue? No! What it does mean is that you are submitting yourself and your marriage before the Lord for Him to guide and direct your paths. This is a daily process. We must be in constant prayer for our marriages, and our spouses. The enemy is constantly looking for spot to creep up into, so always be on your guard. Seeking Him first daily is the key to that guardianship.
A Call to Husbands & Wives
Men, we are called to be the spiritual leaders of our households. That is an awesome responsibility. But what does it mean and how do we do it? This for me, this was by far the hardest thing to learn, and I am still learning it today. But what I can tell you, is that there are some basic steps to begin. One, prayer… Pray with your family. Pray with your wife. Two, Ask God to direct you on how to be a spiritual leader. I will suggest starting a weekly family devotion time. Come together as a family in prayer and studying the Word of God. And as you will notice in the scripture below, it says we are to bath our wives in the word of God. Now, what does that mean? It means that we have to not only be in the Word ourselves, it means we are to share with her what we learn and what God has shown us. It also means we are to pray with her. As well as, spending time in the Word with her.
Women, you are called to respect your husbands and honor them with submission. Does this mean you are to be a doormat, absolutely not. It simply means that you are under his authority, just as the church is under the authority of God. Ultimately he is accountable for how he leads you and your family, but in order to lead you, you must be willing to submit to him. I would also include in this… prayer. Your husband has multiple decisions everyday that effect your entire family. They are also going to be under attack from the enemy. He will try to distract them anyway he can. So be in daily prayer for Him.
Let’s look at what God’s Word says:
Wives, be subject to your own husbands, as to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, as Christ also is the head of the church, He Himself being the Savior of the body.
But as the church is subject to Christ, so also the wives ought to be to their husbands in everything.
Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself up for her, so that He might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, that He might present to Himself the church in all her glory, having no spot or wrinkle or any such thing; but that she would be holy and blameless.
So husbands ought also to love their own wives as their own bodies. He who loves his own wife loves himself; for no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as Christ also does the church, because we are members of His body.
FOR THIS REASON A MAN SHALL LEAVE HIS FATHER AND MOTHER AND SHALL BE JOINED TO HIS WIFE, AND THE TWO SHALL BECOME ONE FLESH.
This mystery is great; but I am speaking with reference to Christ and the church.
Nevertheless, each individual among you also is to love his own wife even as himself, and the wife must see to it that she respects her husband.” ~ Ephesians 5:21-33
To much pain
All this is great, but we are to far gone and there has been to many harsh words said and to many things done for us to ever get back to where we were before. If this is you, stop believing that lie. It is from the very pits of Hell. Satan would love nothing more, than to destroy another marriage. God can do anything. Saying He can’t save your marriage because there is to much pain, means that you are putting limits to God’s provision and His love for us. And my friend, nothing could be further from the truth. He didn’t send His Son to die and save His bridegroom for the fun of it, He did it because He loves you and me and He wanted to save us at any cost. And the same goes for your marriage. He can and will save your marriage, IF we allow Him too. It does not matter what has happened, what has not happened, whether it be adultery, lying, or money just to name a few. There is nothing that His grace and mercy can’t cover. How do I know? Because my wife and I experienced all of the above. We where on the very brink of divorce, with papers filled when God reached in and provided a miracle and saved our marriage. He not only restored it, HE TRANSFORMED IT! Our marriage is stronger and better now than I could have ever imagined. And all it took was us both surrendering, fully and completely to Him and His will for our lives. Jeremiah 29:11 says this, I have plans not to harm you, but rather plans for you to prosper”. That promise holds true for you too!
The Key
Here is the key. Both parties have to be willing to try. Just try! You have tried it on your own and it failed, so before you call it quits, just try this one last thing. I promise, you won’t regret it. GIVE IT ALL TO GOD! Both of you, get on your knees and cry out to God and ask Him to heal your marriage. Ask Him to forgive you both, ask Him to help you forgive each other, and ask Him for His promises to be fulfilled in your life and in your marriage. Will it be hard? Yes! But each time you think it is getting to hard, proclaim His promises in His Word out loud and ask Him to give you the strength. If you are willing to put down your pride, and pick up your cross, you will be transformed… not restored, but transformed! That is a promise!
Prayer: Father, I come to you today and ask you for forgiveness Lord. I need your help. I need my marriage to be transformed like only you can. Lord, I pray that you will give me the strength to try your way. I pray that your spirit will guide not only me, but my spouse as well. Father, I am asking you for you promise on my marriage and for you not only to save it, but transform it by the power of your healing hand. Amen!
The link above takes you to an article I wrote regarding the responsibility the husband has in loving his wife, especially if he expects “submission.”
Jim, Thank you for your response. I read your link and would agree that in many cases the word submission is mistranslated in the minds of men. That is not what God intends for marriage to be. The passages that you refer to are great ones, but taken out of context could do more harm than good in a marriage relationship. God has placed the man as the spiritual leader for his home, just as Christ is the spiritual leader of the church. However, that does not mean that man is supposed to use their wives as doormats. We are to humbly love them as Christ loves the Church in every aspect. Thank you again for your comment.
God can absolutely save a marriage! My husband and I went through a five year separation and were done all but for the signing of the documents but through God’s mercy our relationship was completely restored. We have been reunited for nearly for years now and going strong. Thank you for your encouraging post and letting people know that there is hope if both people are willing to do what’s necessary to save their relationship.
Thank you for sharing Kristine… God is so great! It is truly amazing the things He does when we fully surrender ourselves to His Will. Thank you for your encouragement and sharing your marriage testimony!
5 years?? Lord my God. Please give me patience.
GOD
I am going through issues with my new husband. We have been married since 11/4/2010 and he has a condition called “lifestyle addiction”. See he was at one time living a life full of drugs, women and just in the fast lane. I am 61 and he is 59. He says he loves me but he has this addiction. He is in counselling for this condition but I feel he needs God more then another person. He says it is the thrill of it and nothing more. I have prayed, spoken to one of my Ministers and I just feel hopeless. I will continue to say the prayer on this article, because I believe he is worth saving. I believe that he does love me, but je just can’t continue this lifestyle; I feel he has today mixed up with yesterday. I will try to have him read your article and maybe it will help him understand that God has to be in this marriage at all cost.
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Can a marriage be saved when only one person wants to save it and is calling on God to soften his wife’s heart.
Bill,
God can save that marriage too… My marriage was is that same boat. I was trying to save and my wife did not want to work things out. With papers filed and divorce on the brink, He reached in and saved, restore and renewed our marriage better than ever. It can only be summed up as this, His hands moved and changed my wife’s heart at the last waking hour. So, yes, He can save a marriage like that. Keep doing everything that God is telling you to do and continue to pray for your wife. I will say this, that you must remember that she has the power of “free will”. And while God might be working on her heart, she has the ability to say no to Him and reject His blessings. Keep the faith my brother and don’t stop praying for a miracle, He is still in the miracle business.
Brad
I am in a fight to save my marriage and my wife is all but done it seems. All she says is that we are in different places and I have done everything including giving it to God and prayer. I have lost weight and regained a church lifestyle and way of life from all this….which is great but I just want her back too. I am struggling because she is ready for divorce after 3 months of seperation and I am not. I have been a good man but we just want different things she says. Please pray for my marriage and thank you for the moving story. I hope my story ends much the same.
My brother, I am praying for you, your wife and your marriage. I want to encourage you not to give up. God is at work in your life and is drawing you closer to Him. I want to also say this, not to be negative but to speak in truth. Remember, your wife has the same free will you have in Christ. However, I would not give up trying with your wife. Continue to pray for her. Continue to encourage her in Christ. I would not hound her, as that will push her away, but love her as Christ loves the church. We as men have that command from God to be the spiritual leaders in our homes and the best way to lead is by example. Don’t put on an act. Fall in love with Christ! Then out of that love, you will grow to love her as Christ loves His Church. As for your wife… I assume she is a believer too? I would encourage you to reach out to your small group in church (Sunday School Class), be open with them and ask for some of the women from your church to call her, take her out to lunch and be an encouragement to her. Remember not to judge her. She has one judge! If you need to talk more, you can email me anytime, as I am happy to help encourage you and pray for you! My email is ourwalkwithjesus@yahoo.com. God bless you brother, and I am praying for you!
I have handed my marriage in need of saving over to God. I am finding that I struggle regularly when my husband has bad days-he moved into his mother’s home 4 weeks ago, leaving our 4 children aged 2, 10, 13 and 16 with me in our home. We are having extraordinary financial problems and he has made no money at his job in months (commission based). I feel that he is feeling like a failure and out of desperation and our fighting he called a girlfriend from when he was 18 or 19 years old. They have had a 2 month phone relationship (she lives 8 1/2 hours away and thankfully he isn’t in a hurry to visit her, but thinks they may end up together, he isn’t sure). I have been with my husband for 18 years and he is truly the love of my life. I feel that the financial pressure was too much to handle on top of a toddler, a child headed to college and let down dreams (I was going to be a more attentive wife this time around with our youngest child-I really desired a 4th child and we were in a wonderful place in our marriage only 3 years ago, he had his vasectomy reversed and now he feels left out, let down and ashamed because of his inability to get a salaried job that will pay our bills). I have prayed as much as any one person can and I have seen improvement, but he also stopped wearing his wedding ring a couple weeks ago, which is worrisome to me. I was wondering if there were a lot of ups and downs before you and your wife got back together. The roller coaster is so difficult for me. I believe God can restore our marriage, but part of me is still fearful.
First let me say this… I will be praying for you and your marriage. When we face these issues in marriage, we are always faced with 2 options. Stay and fight for it or give up. It sounds like to me that he has given up in every area of his life and trying to fill a void that can’t be filled by anything or anyone. Is he a believer? I would keep praying for him and encouraging him, maybe through daily scripture. Don’t overwhelm him or you run the risk of pushing him further away. Stay strong. This is not a battle of your marriage, as hard as that may seem, it is a battle within himself. Does or has he suffered with depression in the past? I would encourage him in Gods word and his truth. Remind him that you are a team and that God will carry you through. God is more interested in build our character then his is with us being comfortable. This season of financial trouble could be just that, a character test. Please keep me updated. And yes, there were many ups and downs before it got better with my wife and I, but God can and will restore your marriage, but it takes both parties surrendering individually to the Lord. I am praying for you!
He has suffered from depression and was actually on an antidepressant for a couple years-which he often forgot to take for days at a time. He has an appt with our doctor to get off of it completely…he has lowered the dose already.
He was a believer-not sure if he still is, because of how he is acting. In fact there were times when I would stay home with our 2 year old when she was first born-up until a year old and he would take our older 3 kids and himself to church. Not this last year, though.
I am not sure he is surrendering to God, I think he is trying to escape the feeling of failure right now.
He seems uncomfortable with the fact that as of the last 2 Sundays I have returned to church while he comes and visits with our children. Sunday is usually a bad day for him each week. I do have to say that I have seen improvement the last couple weeks which has encouraged me to seek God more. I have been a very critical wife and I have contributed to his feeling of shame over finances. I have asked his forgiveness and God’s forgiveness and God has definitely been changing my heart, but right now, my husband doesn’t seem to want to see it. Though Friday and Saturday he did ask me to go out with him…so maybe he is trying and just not telling me about it. My character has definitely had a lot to improve and I feel the last couple months have been a real eye opener for me. I just pray it isn’t too late.
I would encourage him not to get off the meds right now and to take them as directed. Missing doses, especially anti depression meds, can often times cause more harm than good. Second, I want you and your husband to hear this truth. If you both have been saved by the Blood of Jesus Christ, and accepted him as your Lord and Savior, you can not lose that salvation. While there are times in all of our lives, that we fall and even slip back into our old lifestyles, your salvation is secure. We all sin and fall short of the Glory of God, but he is quick to forgive us if we ask for it.
Marriage is a team effort… Wives have there commands that come from God and likewise, husbands have ours. Husbands are to love our wives as Christ loves the church. It is not a feeling, but a choice. Like wise, wives are to respect and submit themselves to her husband, as he has called him to be the head of the house, as Christ is the head of the church. This is a process and not a one time fixes all. It is a daily battle or choice that we must make each and every minute of everyday. I would like for you to ask him to start praying with you, even over the phone. Even if you don’t know what to pray about or if you prayer is two minutes long, pray together as one flesh. If he doesn’t want to, or gives an excuse, ask if you can prayer for him while you are on the phone or in person. Don’t give up… Gods word tells us that where two or more are gathered in Jesus name, he is there also!
My husband filed for divorce 9 months ago. We have a 3 year old son who prays constantly he wants mommy and daddy back together. My husband’s heart has softened some but we still have not talked about us. He insists it’s over! I on the other hand have not stopped praying. I love him so, as well as my son, and want our family whole. God is working in this I can clearly see but I am not sure he wants us back together. I pray for wisdom and clarity as to what to do. I pray for strength to let go and let God. I pray for a divine miracle. I ask these things in Jesus’ precious name, and so it is so, amen!
We are with you in prayer. I would also encourage you to continue to seek God in this situation and to grow closer to Him.
My wife filed for divorce April 2011. I found god and have been praying through rosary, chaplet and Pedro pio everyday. My wife pretty much told me its over. I still have hope and faith that god can save our marriage not only for us but our three boys who need us both now more than ever. I won’t give up and the church reminds me of our vows for better or worse to death do us part. This is the worse problem I’ve ever had to deal with in my life. We’ve been married for nineteen and i hope another 100 more. Please pray for our family. Gregory and laurie.
My wife served me with divorce papers April 2011. I found god and pray through rosary, chaplet and padro pio every day since. We’ve been married nineteen years and i won’t give up on our family. We have three boys who need us both now more than ever. I have hope and faith that god can save our marriage. Please pray for our family. Gregory and Laurie. Thank you and god bless all.
I will be praying for you Gregory… I know that divorce is hard, especially with kids. I want to ask you something… You said you found God. Have you ask Jesus Christ to be your Lord and Savior, to forgive you of your sins and to enter into a eternal relationship with God through His Son Jesus Christ?
Yes. i also been praying everyday since April this year and plan on praying everyday for the rest of my life! i have hope and faith that god can change my wife without her wanting to. have you ever heard of this being done? I’ve seen so many signs from the lord to encourage me i think? I’ve given my heart to the lord the third day after the divorce papers were served. i trust in Jesus!
That is awesome Gregory! I would highly suggest to you to take this time and truly dig into God’s Word and His promises. Deepen your relationship with Him first. Then as He works on your wife, you will be there to help guide her and be a Biblical Husband that God has called you to be… loving her as Christ loved the Church. Ask Him to reveal to you the things that you need to change about you to make you more like His Son… another words, be the clay in the potters hands, allowing Him to mold you and make you into who He wants you to be and who He created you to be. As you continue on this journey, keep praying for your wife. And yes, I have seen the hand of God move in ways that you would not believe. God is still in the miracle business and He and He alone has the power to change peoples hearts! With that being said, she still has the choice to reject Him (her free will). God will not force Himself on anyone. However, if she belongs to Him, He will not let her go and He will continue to get her attention one way or another. I will keep praying for you and your marriage.
My husband and I have been married for 30 years, and he left almost 7 monthes ago, I was a, still are devastaed.. I havent gave up we still were dating and cummintcating till the last week and now hes pushing me away.. I have never prayed for something and someone so hard in my life.. I have faith but stay terrified that he is just waiting on time for divorce, I dont think I could handle that. But I still tel him everyday I love him and lately he want evern say it back, after hering this for 30 years its hard to not hear… I miss him so bad but he seems to be slipping farther away.. seems the harder i pray for him and us the farther away he gets… i know he has free will but how can he be so cold…
Janet,
I will join you in praying for your marriage. I want to tell you a couple of things. I would continue to pray and let God handle the rest. The more you try to control him, the more he will push you away. I don’t know the entire situation, but I can tell you that he is in a battle right now. It is time to take him off your hook and put him on God’s. With that being said, I want to encourage you to really grow closer to the Lord yourself. Draw near to him and He will draw near to you. Read, study and pray over His Word. Seek that deeper relationship with Him. When we take our attention off of our problems and lay them at the foot of the cross, and then focus on what God is trying to teach us, then we truly grow in our relationship with Him. God is your strength… remember that… your husband in not! God will fill that void, that is a promise I know is true. I can’t tell you what your husband will do, but I can tell you that God loves you and His Word and His promises are true! You will find the strength in Him and you will find healing in Him and only Him. One promise is Jeremiah 29:11 and the other tells us that if we seek Him, we will find Him.
My husband and I have been married for a little over 13 years. We got married when we were just teenagers and we have two daughters. During our years of marriage I lived very selfishly. Wanting it to have my way. I found God in the midst of our marriage but still didn’t understand what marriage meant to God. Earlier this year my husband told me he wanted a divorce. After several painful weeks he decided he wanted to try and make it work. Up until the time he told me he wanted out, I slipped away from God. But I felt God for several months telling me that I am going down the wrong path. It’s been ten months and I have grown closer to God in this time than I have in my entire life.
Last night my husband told me he was done trying to make it work. That he wished he would have went ahead and gone through with the divorce back when he first told me. That he thinks I’m being fake. That I need to concentrate on my relationship with the kids because ours is over. He said he’s not happy and doesn’t feel for me the way he used to.
Because of my closeness with God these past 10 months, I wasn’t as devastated as when he told me before. I am trusting God to work out the plan he has for my life. I am hopeful that it will also include my husband and the restoration of my marriage. Whatever the outcome, I know God will never leave me nor forsake me and I’m holding onto that promise.
C.J.
I want to tell you that we will be in prayer for your marriage. I will tell you that all things are possible with God! I would continue to grow closer to the Lord during this time. I would also be in prayer for your husband. Does he know the Lord? I will tell you this, focus on what God is trying to teach you here and not what your husband calls “being fake”. Let God show him the truth. Just like you however, your husband has free will to make this choice. So stay strong to God’s promises for you! Pray for him everyday, not just for your marriage, but pray for his heart!
I have been married for 5 yrs. my husband is a pastor. Sometimes last year I got to know that he has been cheating on me. He has been having affair with differrent women especially those who attend his church. He has also been addicted to drinking and most of the time he runs after those women who can support him financially. When I asked him of all those scandals i was hearing he denied and told me if i am not going to trust him he is ready for a divorce. He stays i a different town and i cut communication with him for about two months, I was praying God to intervene, things started going worse in his side, nothing was succeeding in his life, he decided to come back to me to ask for forgiveness, after 3 weeks again erupted some misunderstanding between us and told me again i keep away from his life, I am praying God to show me HIS will in my marriage as am hurt, please advice me we have not communicated to each other for 1 week now since he left.
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Rose, we join with you in prayer for your husband. I am going to say something here and I want you to hear this carefully. Your husband is playing with fire! We are all created equally in Gods eyes. But when we take an oath and surrender to the calling that He has for us, we are held to a higher standard. Simply because we are the shepherds leading the sheep. The Bible is very clear about false teachers and those who lead others astray. I don’t like to ever take sides, because I do realize that there is always two sides to every story. However, I will speak truth into darkness. God is also very clear about marriage and cheating. He is also very clear about what you have the right to do if this is the case in your marriage.
With all that being said, I would tell you to specifically ask God what He would have you to do. Does He want you to stay and work through you or does He give you permission to leave? He will tell you the answer…. I will tell you again, your husband is playing with fire, much like David… He will soon be running from God and the choices he has made, if he is not already. Seek God in EVERY SINGLE decision you make from here on out.
We are praying and please keep us updated!!!
i have been marriage for three years my have filed for divorce i need help bad to save my marriage i have been with her for 18years off and on she say she love me i know she do she cry all the time when iam around her i have prayed nothing seem work i gave up she said have faith what i do i need help please
C.J.
I have been married for 17 1/2 years. In Sept. my husband said the same things to me. Then in Oct. he moved out. We went through several periods of time where he seemed to be ‘trying’ somewhat-in actions only (dating, kind of…as in ‘I’m going to watch the fights tonight if you are interested’…not really a ‘date’ but I took it) and then on and off. He was absolutely done. I mean done.
Went so far as to plan to move to another state, made new year’s eve plans with another woman in another state…and went and kept them.
On new year’s even, though I got an email that said things with her were not ‘past the point of no return’. Then on the 1st I got 4 texts that said he didn’t know if we could work it out, but things would not be past the point with the other woman. He left where he was at midnight, drove 7 hours straight to our home….wasn’t actually going to do that, but decided on the way to not go to his mom’s and come home to me.
He has been home for 10 days. The first day and a half were great, then a rocky 5 days….up and down….now it is evened out and things are getting back to normal.
I hadn’t picked my bible up much before my husband started talking about leaving in Sept. I relied on my bible the whole time he was gone. I also meditated. I started to feel God telling me that things would be fine and to trust in him. Some days were harder than others. But I grew stronger in my faith. There was one passage that said something about ‘this is not your battle. take your position, stand still and let the lord fight this battle for you’. I read that everyday.
You ask God for what you want and you act righteous as best you can and you have faith and you believe and know that God will work on behalf of your marriage. Your husband has free will, but God is persuasive. My husband was beyond done, and I, too, was selfish througout most of our marriage and my husband felt that I loved the kids and not him. God can heal and restore anything.
You must have faith and hand it over…..and this is the HARD part: hand it over and don’t take it back to try and work on it yourself. Let God guide you, but hand the marriage over to God and pray for your husband’s mind, priorities, walk, your marriage, his trials….all of the things in that ‘the power of a praying wife’ book. I prayed most of the prayers daily.
You can trust in God and in the meantime, pray for peace and joy and hope for yourself and live every day as if it is all you will have. Let God do the rest.
I will pray for your marriage and know that it can be restored.
D.W.
Praise the Lord DW!!! I am so happy to hear that you marriage has been restored…. And CJ, we continue to pray for you and don’t give up… God is still working!
My husband and I have been married for 15 years. My daughter from a previous marriage got a brain tumor after being married only 3 years. We had an 11 month old son at the time. The next 3 years I was taking care of her and my son. Then she passed away at 14 years of age. I spent the next several years dealing with depression and I know I was not supportive of my husband. He now says he loves me but he’s not in love with me. There has been so much pain. I still love him. Our son is now 12 and I do not want a divorce. l’m praying for a miracle. Please pray for me.
Me and my girlfriend have finally tied the knot after a semi great 17 years. My insecurities have alway been my demons and feel that they might have ended my marriage. On Feb 7 we got into a physical fight. We kissed and made up that night but the next day, the authorities showed up and made me leave, She’s been gone for almost 2 weeks and have not heard a word from her or our kids. Before the police showed up we were lying down on the bed and i told her that i loved her very much. I feel she’s not willing to fight for us anymore. why would she say ” I DO ” and now say I quit in this marriage? I miss her very much and I am lost. I recommitted myself to god and I have prayed and ask for him to forgive me for forgetting that he was always there and I have since then repented, but feel its not enough. I have prayed everyday and so hard that some nights my prayer ends up in tears, I ask the lord almighty to wipe the clouds in front of her heart so that she can forgive me and give this marriage a real chance. It hurts to think that I have failed as a husband and now i have failed our children. I can’t be my best if my best isn’t there.
Please give me the strength and wisdom to over come this so that I may be the man she married.
I need you in my Life GOD and I’m sorry commiting sins, please forgive me and help me in my time of need.
I too am in a mess … A mess created by my spouse and I throughout the last 10 1/2 years of our relationship and 7 1/2 years of marriage. However, this not being suprising considering I have ran from God for over 10 years even though my foundation is of Christian faith. When I say, RAN – I mean, “I can figure this out on my own. I can steer my ship. I’ve got a plan that will work. I can FIX my relationship with my husband. I can FIX his mood disorder through research, support groups and nagging … etc” ALL, being in VAIN of the True God that I should have been leaning on for direction instead of leaning on my OWN understanding which has inevitably gotten us into this shipwreck. When taking our life situation into our OWN hands – we have literally crushed eachothers spirits with harsh words, accusations, and rung out the last bit of love that we expressed to eachother. We have cut eachothers hearts out and served them to eachother bruised and beaten. The well … has run … dry. So, in hopes that I could salvage what little to nothing we have left and build the goodness back up in me, I went back to what I always knew – Jesus. Where else was I supposed to go? I have nowhere else. I have used every logical explanation up, every common sense answer, every worldly last resort(which is not where I should have turned to begin with).
This is week 3 on my journey through Gods Grace. A journey I still am learning in BUT nonetheless, has changed my heart, opened my eyes, and transformed my bitter, angry and cold heart into a joy filled spirit(my husband is so frustrated with our situation and shut off towards me – he doesn’t believe it though). My soul finally has an underlined peace that only can be given from the True Savior a peace that drives me to look to Him each morning when I wake, each moment when I feel weak and each night as I wake to pray over my husbands broken ness. I know – the direction I’m walking, is the one I should have taken many years ago. I’m staying with my mom who is an absolute Godly support, soft Godly correction and Huge biblical motivation. I could not ask for a better place to be. And, although I miss my husband terribly & want nothing more than to go home and be with him … I know I am exactly where God wants me to be and that God can restore what we have abused.
Although my direction and choice has been to turn to God … My husband has not expressed the same desire – he wants OUT. He wants to run, hide, bury his head in a hole and act as if I never existed. Its as if he believes his emotion brings him pain so, he’s cut me off. He has little to no hope that things will ever change between us (But, how could I blame him when we have repetitively re-visited this-with nothing ever repaired but further damaged so, everything in the world points to – FAIL. I’m thankful that I’m not putting my trust in the “world” any longer.) My flesh cries out when I hear&feel this cold heartedness from him – and his words&feelings cut like a sharp blade. But, I believe in a God that parted the Red Sea and walked on water. Why couldn’t this same God heal my broken, off in a ditch, close to the endge of a cliff marriage.
And, as I continue my journey through Gods Grace … My hurting husbands needs healing, his heart needs to be made whole again and his spirit needs to be revived with JOY-a joy only our Heavenly Father can give us. Please, please, please pray for our fragile situation. I want NOTHING more than to re-unite in a healthy and joy filled marriage. And, I KNOW the only way this will be possible is it Gods Grace and Mercy are blanketed over us both. I really need the support and prayers.